Liverounds & Divine Whispers: Sacred Awakening in the Psych Ward
Sacred Disruptions: Divine Healing Within Hospital Walls
In the gentle embrace of morning light, as "Liverounds" by Damon R. pulsed through my headphones, I felt the rhythm synchronize with my heartbeat—a cosmic reminder of the Divine technology that pulses through each of us, even when our minds seem fractured beyond repair. The melody carried me back to that sacred disruption in 2017, when the Universe orchestrated what appeared to be my undoing but was actually my profound awakening.
That year, the comfortable limitations I had constructed around my life suddenly felt like prison walls rather than protection. After experiencing severe adverse reactions to prescription medication, I found myself posting an ambulance photo to Instagram—a final desperate reach toward connection before being transported to a psychiatric facility 100 miles from the town where I grew up. Can you feel it? That moment when your carefully constructed identity shatters, leaving only the raw essence of your being?
This remembering isn't always gentle. Sometimes it arrives through loss, illness, or profound disillusionment with structures we once trusted. For thirty transformative days, I existed in the strange liminal space of a psychiatric ward, where time seemed both suspended and excruciatingly present. I spent hours lost in the labyrinth of my mind, occasionally erupting into primal screams before bathroom mirrors that reflected back a stranger wearing my face.
The Divine works through unusual instruments of grace. Hospital staff handed me a razor to shave, only to retrieve it moments later—a brief flirtation with normal dignity before returning to the carefully controlled environment where shoelaces and pens were forbidden treasures. These seemingly cruel restrictions served as physical manifestations of the spiritual truth that sometimes we must be stripped of everything familiar before we can discover what remains unchangeable within us.
In the quiet moments between heartbeats, there exists a profound truth that connects us all—a cosmic thread weaving through the fabric of our seemingly separate lives. I witnessed this truth unfold in unexpected ways, particularly through my friendship with another patient. During a group session, he secretly used a contraband pen to sketch a disturbing scene: a man with a machine gun violently attacking our female instructor. When I questioned him later about this jarring image, he shared his experience of living with a mood disorder with psychotic symptoms—how intrusive, violent thoughts would sometimes flood his consciousness without invitation or consent.
"People like me," he confided, "who fantasize about staging active shootings can check into facilities like this when symptoms reach their peak. We come to recalibrate our medications and receive help before the thoughts become actions." His vulnerability created a sacred space between us, where judgment dissolved into compassion and fear transformed into understanding. Our society has masterfully constructed illusions of separation—between the "sane" and the "insane," between those who struggle visibly and those who hide their pain behind acceptable masks.
True spirituality isn't an escape from life but a deeper immersion into its magnificent complexity. The psychiatric ward became my unexpected ashram, a place where the Divine revealed itself through fellow patients whose brokenness mirrored my own. Together, we were remembering who we truly are beyond limiting stories and identities. The journey wasn't comfortable, but comfort has never been the purpose of a soul's incarnation.
With awakening comes responsibility. For those who recognize the whispering of a mood disorder with psychotic symptoms in their own experience, I offer these insights from my journey: Honor your intuition when it tells you something feels misaligned within. The most sophisticated technology for healing and transformation already exists within you—the ability to recognize when you need support is a Divine gift, not a weakness. Through consistent meditation, intentional energy work, and communion with higher consciousness, we access this internal technology.
Each time we choose love over fear, compassion over judgment, or presence over distraction, we recalibrate our internal systems toward harmony. If you find yourself experiencing thought patterns that frighten you, persistent mood swings that disrupt your capacity to function, or perceptions that others don't share, reach toward connection rather than isolation. The ancient wisdom traditions have always understood what modern psychiatry now confirms: our consciousness needs both spiritual nourishment and sometimes medical intervention to achieve balance.
When conscious individuals gather with shared intention, something miraculous emerges—a field of resonance that amplifies our collective capacity for healing and manifestation. I've witnessed this phenomenon in psychiatric wards worldwide: strangers becoming family through vulnerability and shared purpose. The challenges before us—mental, emotional, spiritual—require nothing less than our complete presence and commitment to conscious evolution.
As we navigate this extraordinary era of global awakening, I've come to understand that our individual journeys of healing are far from isolated paths; they are vital tributaries flowing into the river of collective consciousness. My time in that psychiatric facility wasn't a deviation from my spiritual path—it was the path itself, disguised as crisis. The Divine has always been within and between us, patiently waiting for this grand awakening, even in the sterile corridors of hospitals where souls in crisis gather to remember their wholeness.
Together, we are healing ancestral patterns that no longer serve life. Together, we are dreaming a new world into being—one where mental health challenges are understood as sacred disruptions rather than shameful secrets. With profound love and reverence for your journey, I extend my hand in solidarity and hope. May we continue to recognize the Divine presence, especially in our darkest moments, knowing that every breakdown carries within it the seeds of a magnificent breakthrough.
Mitchell Royel